my (now ex) boyfriend left to college and I’m sad
" I understand that you cannot accept me. I will learn how to accept that. But be warned-I am not some cheap love motel that you can walk in and out of. Do not remind me that you are a lost soul without me. Do not tell me that you are lonely just because your arms feel empty. Do not say that you miss me, then act like you don’t know me because your words do not fit your actions. Do not fucking dare try to tell me all these things because I am a burning building. Barely surviving. And I bleed your name each time you lower your head passing me by without speaking. Stop trying to drag me through fire only to be left out on the streets with a burnt body for others to stare at. Do not fucking dare to hold my hand or touch me. Because the next time you do so, I will pull away like an open lit candle beneath the palms of my hands. It will feel like I am unearthing trees from their roots and moving mountains from the earth. But read the signs. You know you only hold her half as tight because you know i’m still tangled within your heart and mind. If you still really cared about me, you would learn to let me go, keep me in your heart, and accept me.
— make up your mind because it’s your move next | e.s.a (extant-words)
I haven’t posted a selfie in a while but I still am very cute just to keep you updated
the past couple of days have been hard and I lost my resolve for a night and I’ll never do what I did that night ever again.
I like drinking coffee alone, and reading alone.
I like riding the bus alone, and walking home alone.
It gives me time to think, and set my mind free.
I like eating alone, and listening to music alone.
But when I see a mother with her child, a girl with her lover, or a friend laughing with their best friend, I realize that even though I like being alone, I don’t fancy being lonely. The sky is beautiful, but the people are sad. I just need someone who won’t run away.
(Source: buddhacoffee, via sorryitsrachel)